xmutanthigh | [open log] Procrastination is such a wonderful thing

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[open log] Procrastination is such a wonderful thing

Characters: Rogue, YOU!
Setting: How about... the kitchen!
Content: Stuffs in which you should partake
Status: Open Sesame!
Notes: Bria's making an open log cuz she's bored. Clearly she must be either drinking or avoiding writing papers. Who knows? It might be both.

[Rogue's sitting in the kitchen with a steaming hot mug of tea and some random book that has absolutely nothing to do with class or her exams. Shhh, she's procrastinating! Don't tell anyone! But, y'know, feel free to bother her.]

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Just hear me out. [Okay. He's probably going to have to sell this one.] I'm guessing Logan and I are still the only ones around here who really know what you went through with Magneto. But if he really is involved in this Brotherhood stuff, you can't just keep this to yourself. It'll resurface and it could end up being dangerous, for you, and for the rest of the team.

[His expression is earnest, because he really does want to look out for her, and to look out for his teammates.]

If Frost knows... she might be able to help you deal with it more. I know you don't like her - I don't like her that much, either. But she's good at what she does. And I really don't want you getting put in a position where you can get hurt.

[And now he's praying that she understands and that she won't kill him for bringing it up.]

You do remember that I ain't exactly on the team anymore, right? [Her voice has more than a hint of anger and irritation to it and she regrets it almost immediately. Her issues with that are her own problem. He doesn't deserve to have her take out her anger on him and she shoots him a quick apologetic look.] Sorry, I know that's not what either of us meant.

[She takes a deep breath and a moment to consider what he said. ~~And to also reflect that now is not the time to inform him that Julian's been added to the short list of people who know what really happened.~~ He's got a point about Magneto. The rest though...]

Look, I... I'm trying to deal with it. Honestly. I don't think think Frost is going to help here. She helped me with some of the psyche stuff but this... this ain't the same thing.

[Her reaction isn't surprising. He presses his lips together, pondering what to say.]

Okay. I just... [He sighs again, runs a hand through his hair.] Whatever's happening right now, it's big. Maybe bigger than anything else we've faced before. You might not be on the team, but... I don't think that's going to matter when it all goes down.

[He glances at her again, expression slightly apologetic and thoroughly sincere.] You don't have to talk to Frost. But... if it's getting bad... come talk to me.

I know. [She drops her head into hands, frustrated with the entire situation and frustrated with herself. She knows that he's right about all of this. When there's an attack, it doesn't matter who's got the official title: they'll all be in the thick of it.

It's his offer to listen that really brings her back from her pent up anger.] I'm working on it. It's real complicated to explain but... Logan's helping me work on it in the DR. [She knows her hesitant words are incredibly cryptic but doesn't want to completely explain the whole psyche thing because would inevitably lead to talking about Bobby's psyche and neither one of them want to talk about that.]

Yeah? [He leans on his crossed arms, instinctively understanding what she doesn't want to say. He's not particularly keen to open that can of worms either.] That's good. Is it helping?

It's a uhh... work in progress. [Which is really just a way to say that it's thus far been a mess but she's trying. She shrugs a little, wrapping both of her hands around her warm mug again.]

Ah. [Yeah. he knows what that means. He glances over at her, a tiny smile on his face.] I'm proud of you. For working on it. I know it can't be easy.

[Her cheeks flush just a little bit pink and she looks down at her book for a moment until she can make it subside.] Thanks, sugah. [She bites her lip, hesitating before these next words, not sure if they're crossing the line.] I've missed this. Being able to just talk, I mean.

[His smile turns softer, wider.] Me too. [And it's true - he has. He's missed talking to her. And while it's not the same (he can't actually remember a time before their messy break-up where they'd talked and weren't interested in each other or in some kind of relationship), it's easy, comfortable. And he realises that this is what he wants - his best friend, because that's what she was.]

[There's a brief pause and Bobby leans back in his chair, one hand reaching up to knead the back of his neck.] I, uh... I have something to tell you.

[The hesitancy vanishes and she smiles. It is different but it's nice and it's easy. Maybe this really can work after all.]

[She raises a curious eyebrow at him.] Yeah? What is it?

[He feels a little embarrassed and ducks his head a bit, sheepishly. This seems strange, telling his ex-girlfriend about a new relationship. But, he thinks, it's not so strange to tell a friend.]

Um... so, Laura and I are... together now. At least, I'm pretty sure that's what this is.

[He flashes her a mildly embarrassed, crooked smile.]

Only "pretty sure"? She can't help teasing him a little bit before giving him a more relaxed smile. Seriously though. You and Laura, huh? I'm happy for you, sugah.

[He grins.] Sometimes it's hard to tell, you know, with Laura. But yeah. Thanks. I know it's not going to be easy... but it's worth it.

[Glancing over at her, he realises he's okay enough with her, with their new relationship dynamic, to ask this:] You and Julian are going well, huh?

[Not that he still doesn't really dislike the guy.]

[She blinks, surprised that he's asking. And then she can't help the slight flush that comes to her cheeks.] Yeah, things are going really well, actually.

[The light in her eyes is obvious, and for a moment Bobby feels a slight pang of remembered emotion, recalling when that used to be what he saw in her whenever he entered the room. But just as quickly, the feeling fades. And he smiles at her, a genuine smile with no trace of bitterness or sadness.]

I'm really glad you're happy, Rogue.

Thanks, Bobby.

[There's silence between them for a minute or so. It's a silence that teeters between comfortable and awkward, leaning towards the former. She decides to change the subject, realising that it may have been a poor choice after the words are already out of her mouth.]

You hear that John's got his powers back?

[The tensing of his jaw is so slight it's almost imperceptible. But if anyone would notice it, it would be her. Bobby's not the only one who knows and understands things that others aren't - or weren't - privy to.

He keeps his gaze forward and doesn't answer for a long moment.]

Yeah. Yeah, I heard.

[Now Rogue's just mentally kicking herself for mentioning it especially when she sees how it makes him tense up.] Shit, I'm sorry. I didn't mean... [She trails off, one hand pulling at a lock of hair. She's got a decent idea of some of the thoughts that must be running through his head right now because John was... he ~~was~~is John, emotional baggage and all.]

[He shakes his head, though he can't seem to relax his muscles.] No, don't be sorry. I have to deal with it - with him - sometime. Looks like he might be around for a while.

[Folding his arms, he leans back in his chair and glances at her.] I've been avoiding him. I don't know how to act. There's so much baggage, you know? And I'm tired. Just... tired.

[He lets out a half-hearted chuckle, shakes his head again.] Sorry. Didn't mean to burden you with my issues.

Sugah, come on. Rogue gives him a look that says he's being stupid for even thinking that. You're not burdening me with anything since I already know and even if you were? [She grins wryly at him.] Remember that conversation we just had not five minutes ago?

[He gives her a gentle, slightly sheepish smile.] Yeah, okay. Thanks.

[His expression sobers as he continues to think of John. His unfolds his arms, moves to lean on the table again, unconsciously clenching and unclenching his hands.]

It's... it's a relief that he's alive, you know? But... at the same time, it's harder. Like I'd made my peace with what happened, and all of a sudden he's here, and I'm feeling guilty again.

[He looks over at her again, lips pressed together.] Do you remember the bonfire we had for him?

John made his choice. None of it was your fault, sugah. It was just... [Rogue gives a little shrug, not really sure how to phrase what she wants to say.] Wasn't your fault.

[She nods in response to his question.] Yeah, I remember.

It helped a lot. To... accept everything. I don't know what can help this situation.

[He shrugs, and his eyes take on a slightly troubled expression.]

I know it's not entirely my fault, I know he made his own decisions... but him being around now, it makes me wonder, you know? What could have been different.

[Slow exhale.] He still hates my guts. And all I know is that him walking around without that collar on - it's unsettling.

[Shaking his head and closing his eyes, his next sentence comes out flat and weary.] I'm just tired of being his arch enemy.

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[open log] Procrastination is such a wonderful thing

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AWWW Bobby! <3

Hee, I love that they can be friends now! XD

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I hope it's okay that I 'canon-ised' one of the 'scenes from a relationship'!

It is 100% okay.

Re: It is 100% okay.