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[closed thread] trouble in paradise
Characters: Julian Keller, Rogue.
Setting: Outside Rogue's room.
Content: I wish I could accurately predict this scene's content.
Status: Incomplete.
[Julian didn't think he would be able to sleep at all the night before; yet he laid his head down and eventually drifted off for several hours. The sleep wasn't one that he would call a good rest: instead he opened his eyes against the harsh afternoon sun and felt like he hadn't rested at all.
After the briefing and talking to Emma about Rogue the other day, he had been sent to the med bay to tend to his wounds. The only mildly serious one had been from Longshot's blade, right across his chest - which had needed a few stitches. Absent Josh, Julian has sat through the ordeal of cleaning and dressing the wound; then promptly fell into bed after stopping by Rogue's room and finding her asleep.
Now, freshly showered, still sore, and noticeably exhausted, Julian stops in front of Rogue's door and knocks.]
Setting: Outside Rogue's room.
Content: I wish I could accurately predict this scene's content.
Status: Incomplete.
[Julian didn't think he would be able to sleep at all the night before; yet he laid his head down and eventually drifted off for several hours. The sleep wasn't one that he would call a good rest: instead he opened his eyes against the harsh afternoon sun and felt like he hadn't rested at all.
After the briefing and talking to Emma about Rogue the other day, he had been sent to the med bay to tend to his wounds. The only mildly serious one had been from Longshot's blade, right across his chest - which had needed a few stitches. Absent Josh, Julian has sat through the ordeal of cleaning and dressing the wound; then promptly fell into bed after stopping by Rogue's room and finding her asleep.
Now, freshly showered, still sore, and noticeably exhausted, Julian stops in front of Rogue's door and knocks.]
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Whatever the reason, he merely quietly shuts the door behind him, turns to look at her and begin in a calm voice.]
Emma told me what happened. You okay?
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[She tries to keep her face neutral. It's half a life. Physically, she'll be fine. Mentally, she's got another psyche to deal with along with a few other things. She turns to flick on another light before actually really taking in his demeanor. And then it's her turn to ask, the words stumbling over themselves to come out,] What about you? No one's told us anything about what happened. I was-- Are you okay?
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He's here, with Rogue, after everything. In her room, and she's asking him a question he hasn't even thought to ask himself.
A shaky breath leaves him, and he takes a small step towards her, but stops himself for a reason he doesn't understand.]
I'm fine. Everyone's back in one piece.
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It's difficult, with this sudden wave of reality, of emotion, to know how to answer her any further. He thinks about saying it: that he's killed someone, that there was nothing noble or heroic about, that he feels like nothing makes sense to him anymore - but something does. Something has stayed the same, and he clings to it now as he stares at her, his breath a bit short and his chest aching, his voice full of slight awe.]
I'm in love with you.
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When words finally become unstuck in her throat, they're not the one he's hoped for and her voice is low, not looking him in the eye.] Julian, I can't. I can't say it back yet.
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It's okay. [He all but whispers the response, then opens his eyes.] I wouldn't ask you to.
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He nods.]
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He licks his lips, doesn't exactly know what to say about it.]
Look, I'm. I'm sorry.
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Rogue, I... [He lets out a heavy sigh, lifts a hand to run down his face.] I don't know how to do anything else. [He looks at her then, tiredly, as he confesses this. The truth is he never has and everything that's come after has only reinforced this drive. Brian. Sofia. James. Even Ali, always so reckless. And it's exhausting.] I know you don't need it, sweetheart, but I... [He shakes his head, trails off, his eyes imploring with her to understand, even wordlessly asking for help.] I need to.
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I don't- Just that you fought Polaris. You had to drain her of her powers. [He trails off. Remembers Bobby's slip about the psyches she carries around with her, remembers that day in the library, all those nights he held her...] It took a lot out of you.
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[She waits for him to nod before continuing. Rogue's voice is hesitant at first, pausing every so often but soon gains a note of surety. Her gaze rests upon their entwined hands.] I was a mess when my powers came back. I just didn't realise how much of a mess until a few weeks later when the psyches came back too. Every time I touch someone, I get a version of them in my head. [She pauses to grin wryly.] It gets a little cluttered sometimes and without the Professor here to help me keep them in check, it didn't go too well. Some of the stronger psyches started to take control for short periods of time and other times, they just made me think I was seein' things. I started thinking I was going crazy. Sometimes it was Bobby, sometimes it was Logan, and sometimes... sometimes it was Magneto. That's... [Her voice catches.] That's what was happening when you found me in the library that day. And those all those other times. I was fightin' them.
Logan forced me to talk to Emma and she helped sort them out in my head. He's been helping me work with the psyches so that I control them instead of the other way 'round. Been workin' on recalling their powers too. It's just hard a lot of the time to keep the psyche and the powers separate.
[There's a short pause as she takes a breath and then meets his eyes again.] That's how I was fightin' Polaris. I was using Magneto's powers against her and it started to... to get to me after awhile. And then I drained her powers and kinda just... overloaded. Forge had to get me grounded again so that she wouldn't take over again.
[Rogue takes a deep breath, looking like she's about to keep talking before letting it out in a big whoosh, obviously finished.] And now you know it all.
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He simply gazes at her through it all, slightly concerned, slightly horrified by all of it, and a little impressed, a bit proud of her for pulling through time and time again. For taking on Magneto's psyche like that, the only person he knows terrifies her. Because for all his suspicions over what was going on with her, the truth is worse. Psyches taking over, seeing things...
Julian squeezes her hand now and then as she speaks - sometimes purposely, sometimes not. When she finishes, he's quiet for a few moments, looking down at their clasped hands as well, at his thumbs stroking hers. When he speaks, his voice is low, slightly gruff, and curious.]
Why are you telling me all this now?
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Lame tag, sorry.
I don't know to what you are referring.