http://kickasstelekine.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] kickasstelekine.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] xmutanthigh2011-02-28 05:56 pm

[closed thread] trouble in paradise

Characters: Julian Keller, Rogue.
Setting: Outside Rogue's room.
Content: I wish I could accurately predict this scene's content.
Status: Incomplete.



[Julian didn't think he would be able to sleep at all the night before; yet he laid his head down and eventually drifted off for several hours. The sleep wasn't one that he would call a good rest: instead he opened his eyes against the harsh afternoon sun and felt like he hadn't rested at all.

After the briefing and talking to Emma about Rogue the other day, he had been sent to the med bay to tend to his wounds. The only mildly serious one had been from Longshot's blade, right across his chest - which had needed a few stitches. Absent Josh, Julian has sat through the ordeal of cleaning and dressing the wound; then promptly fell into bed after stopping by Rogue's room and finding her asleep.

Now, freshly showered, still sore, and noticeably exhausted, Julian stops in front of Rogue's door and knocks.
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[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rogue answers the door, still exhausted and dressed in sweatpants, a t-shirt, and bare arms. Her eyes become a fair bit more alert when she sees who her visitor is.] Julian! I... uhm... [She bites her lip nervously for a moment before pushing her door further open, hands linking behind her.] Come in. [She turns away to search for a pair of gloves, pulling on a pair of long black ones once she finds them.]

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll be okay.

[She tries to keep her face neutral. It's half a life. Physically, she'll be fine. Mentally, she's got another psyche to deal with along with a few other things. She turns to flick on another light before actually really taking in his demeanor. And then it's her turn to ask, the words stumbling over themselves to come out,] What about you? No one's told us anything about what happened. I was-- Are you okay?

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
That's good to hear. [Everything just feels off and Rogue's fairly sure that it's not because of their last conversation. She frowns in concern, taking a step towards him and almost reaching out for his hands before thinking better of it.] Julian, what's wrong?

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-02-28 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rogue's not sure what answer she expected him to give but that was certainly not it. For the first time in awhile, she finds herself completely speechless. She must have heard wrong or maybe she hasn't actually woken up yet. Her voice is soft as she speaks, soft and shocked.] You're what?

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 12:25 am (UTC)(link)
It's okay, you didn't. [Rogue's barely even registering the words she's saying. There's still a bit of a daze going on. She lets him pull her closer, even leaning into his touches.] Julian, I... [She stops, not entirely sure what to say. Her eyes cautiously meet his as she starts to bite her lower lip again.]

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
[Rogue drops her gaze, still biting her lip nervously. She knows what he hopes- what he wants to hear but the words are stuck in her throat. This is all happening so fast. The last few minutes have just turned into a giant whirlwind. One hand moves to rest lightly upon his chest, the other moving towards hand twinned into her hair, fingers trailing along his arm.

When words finally become unstuck in her throat, they're not the one he's hoped for and her voice is low, not looking him in the eye.]
Julian, I can't. I can't say it back yet.

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. [She moves closer towards him, her head fitting neatly beneath his chin and she lets out the breath she didn't even realise she was holding.]

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
[They stay there for a little, she's not even sure how long it is until she pulls away a little bit, expression turning serious as she looks meets his eyes.] We need to talk, sugah.

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Gently, she disentangles herself from his arms, moving to sit on her bed and drawing him with her. She doesn't know where to start with any of this especially in light of what he's just told her.] So... about what happened the other day...
Edited 2011-03-01 02:41 (UTC)

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
[She reaches over to take one of his hands in hers, expression serious as she takes a deep breath to steady herself.] I... I don't know what Frost told you exactly but I need you to understand that you can't always be there to protect me. And I need you to understand that I don't need to be protected.

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
[She shakes her head carefully. She can see the plea in his eyes as she holds his gaze and starts to feel almost guilty that she can't just give him this.] Sugah... [There's a deep breath as she looks away slowly before letting it out slowly, meeting his eyes again.] I need to know what Emma told you. About what happened, I mean.

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. [She bites her lip nervously for a moment.] I need to tell you something and I need you to not say anything until I finish because I'm not sure that I can do this otherwise, okay?

[She waits for him to nod before continuing. Rogue's voice is hesitant at first, pausing every so often but soon gains a note of surety. Her gaze rests upon their entwined hands.] I was a mess when my powers came back. I just didn't realise how much of a mess until a few weeks later when the psyches came back too. Every time I touch someone, I get a version of them in my head. [She pauses to grin wryly.] It gets a little cluttered sometimes and without the Professor here to help me keep them in check, it didn't go too well. Some of the stronger psyches started to take control for short periods of time and other times, they just made me think I was seein' things. I started thinking I was going crazy. Sometimes it was Bobby, sometimes it was Logan, and sometimes... sometimes it was Magneto. That's... [Her voice catches.] That's what was happening when you found me in the library that day. And those all those other times. I was fightin' them.

Logan forced me to talk to Emma and she helped sort them out in my head. He's been helping me work with the psyches so that I control them instead of the other way 'round. Been workin' on recalling their powers too. It's just hard a lot of the time to keep the psyche and the powers separate.

[There's a short pause as she takes a breath and then meets his eyes again.] That's how I was fightin' Polaris. I was using Magneto's powers against her and it started to... to get to me after awhile. And then I drained her powers and kinda just... overloaded. Forge had to get me grounded again so that she wouldn't take over again.

[Rogue takes a deep breath, looking like she's about to keep talking before letting it out in a big whoosh, obviously finished.] And now you know it all.

[identity profile] canstillkickass.livejournal.com 2011-03-01 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[She doesn't say anything for a moment, trying to truly absorb that she'd just told him everything.] Because I trust you and I care about you. [Her eyes are willing him to read into that last sentence. Willing him to see that this is her way of reciprocating his words from before.] And because I needed you to understand what I've dealt-- have been dealing with and why you can't always try to protect me.