[Now Kevin's having a really difficult time keeping his emotions in check. He glances to where Logan indicates, and sees that it's true. That Ali and Jono are looking him with uncertain, timid expressions, and Kevin has to looks down at the ground to compose himself. He's getting a little embarrassed at the fact that he has to work to keep his calm at all. Then he looks back up at Logan, and speaks firmly and confidently.]
You're right. And if that's their way of showing that they care, then my way of showing it has to be to keep my distance. I have to do this, Logan. If I stayed... it would just be selfish. I'm done being selfish. I'm doing this for them.
[And this time, Kevin truly believes it. He's been through too much, and seen so many things in a relatively short amount of time, and is done feeling sorry for himself. Done with the pity and the shame. He's glad he went through that period in his life, though, so that he can look back on it through the prism of experience and know that it's not worth the energy to feel self-pity anymore. Now he doesn't know what he wants for himself anymore -- and Logan's not helping, just making him feel more conflicted -- but he does know that he wants his friends safe. And safe means not with him.]
I appreciate what you're doing, though. [Kevin adds this softly, with less command than his previous words, and looks down as he says it, his guard down and vulnerabilities showing in the form of him forgetting to work on keeping his southern accent hidden. He sighs and wraps his sweater around him tighter as the wind blows a bit harder, and is slightly annoyed that he had to give his jacket to Mystique. Well, he isn't suffering as much as she is, so he doesn't have much to complain about, he supposes.]
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You're right. And if that's their way of showing that they care, then my way of showing it has to be to keep my distance. I have to do this, Logan. If I stayed... it would just be selfish. I'm done being selfish. I'm doing this for them.
[And this time, Kevin truly believes it. He's been through too much, and seen so many things in a relatively short amount of time, and is done feeling sorry for himself. Done with the pity and the shame. He's glad he went through that period in his life, though, so that he can look back on it through the prism of experience and know that it's not worth the energy to feel self-pity anymore. Now he doesn't know what he wants for himself anymore -- and Logan's not helping, just making him feel more conflicted -- but he does know that he wants his friends safe. And safe means not with him.]
I appreciate what you're doing, though. [Kevin adds this softly, with less command than his previous words, and looks down as he says it, his guard down and vulnerabilities showing in the form of him forgetting to work on keeping his southern accent hidden. He sighs and wraps his sweater around him tighter as the wind blows a bit harder, and is slightly annoyed that he had to give his jacket to Mystique. Well, he isn't suffering as much as she is, so he doesn't have much to complain about, he supposes.]